It has been a while since I last wrote and I want to share why I’ve experienced a bit of a hiatus of sorts.  While this recent experience has its roots well beyond the last 3 months, I’ll keep on focus since January.

Not writing in the last 2 months was unplanned but it has given me a perspective and allowed some more research to be conducted.  While that’s true, the biggest reason comes from not finding the energy and motivation to write.  I have had and continue to experience insomnia issues that have blocked me on occasion to contribute creatively to my work and my life as a whole.  This struggle has been teaching me a lot but I’ve finally come to terms with seeking out help for it, including a health coach and a doctor as well as connecting with others about related sleep problems.  Not getting enough sleep, or more accurately, enough quality sleep effects every ounce and breath of our lives, especially over long periods of time.  What energy I have had I have devoted to my work for the Shamanic Astrology Mystery School and doing readings, but little else.

The knowledge I am getting from various sources, mentioned above as well as other avenues has assisting my in taking more action and giving it an elevated position in my conscious self.  By doing that, I am calling it out and facing it.  I am also highly aware of the astrological initiations that are assisting me in recognizing the truth of it, especially transiting Saturn over my natal Mercury in Sagittarius.  By seeing it and modifying some things based on what is working or me and letting go what doesn’t work for me I’m able to feel better and have felt better in the last 2 weeks.  While the record-breaking cold, cloudy-wet weather we’ve experienced here in the Northwest is a contributing factor, I know there are underlying factors being triggered.  With more help in the near future, I am arriving at a more healthy formula to get the quality sleep my body, mind and soul desire.

My struggles with CFS, depression and my circadian rhythms over the last few decades have challenged everything and limited me on occasion, but it has also allowed me to go deep into the process of soul.  It also has never stopped me, of course.  That sense of wonder and curiosity stimulates and drives me to discover even more.  It expands who I am as a soul discovering what it is to be human in this age.   With humor and wit, I am able to laugh at the irony of the simplest things like how sleep is one of the most difficult things for me to achieve.  It goes beyond the rational and into our own spiritual truth where the mind can only skim the surface of, like the intangible face of the cosmos as a whole.  The Great Mystery itself.

I am becoming more keenly aware of what I can do action-wise to gain more harmony and balance in my life, where quality sleep comes more often, rather than only a few times a month in some cases.  You will be seeing more of my writing on a regular basis but also I will be more visible at expos, fairs and a few workshops over this year and next for starters.  I look forward to it all and thank you for reading my ramblings 🙂

Erik Roth, Shamanic Astrologer